Jeff Russell

Dear Jeff, sorry for the late answer.

Thanks a million for what you did here. Your reading is incredibly on point! I've come to acknowledge that my mental state was due in its majority to going back to work after the holidays. I work with young addicts and have yet to find my place and presence in front of them. It makes me question who I am at this stage of my life, not to mention all the trauma coming back from when I was their age. So far for the "shadow work" part. This got better in the last weeks, as I realised that I need not be so afraid of them. I'm planning to do a clowning workshop, described by a friend as "a mix of embodiment and shadow workl"

I also made an effort recently to try and say what I would need from management to make the difficult parts of my work more bearable. This would involve oractical changes that they're not yet willing to make. It cost me a sleepless night after the meeting, but I did stand up for myself. I hope this is good for the Tinne part. It will certainly take patience as well.

At the time of asking, I was seeing the same pattern in my relationship situation - not being in the kind of relationship I would like to have, and feeling abandoned by friends lately. This has improved since, and new impulses have come to effect.

I wanted to ask if you assign any special meaning to Straif being reverted? In JMGs books, it just seems to be "more suffering, more unnecessary", than if the card was upright. What do you think?

Sending lots of blessings your way for this!

Anna