Jeff Russell

Happy New Year Kyle,
So sorry to read about your being so violated during your move in. May your future there be full of light and harmony and may you find a way to use this experience to your benefit.

Regarding the divination! wow. Rather clear and solid. Much to think on and digest.

Murky, Murky, Murky! This entire will thing began in a state of murkiness. After ~30 years of mostly positive marriage (she Capricorn me Aries so some head-butting), being married in our church and using I Ching for divination (I took to it like a fish to water while in high school) she "met a guy" and went off the deep end. I checked I Ching and it was very clear that proceeding with him was not the thing to do. For the first time in our lives together she turned her back on this council and things were never the
same. I can't really say much about him other than "very spoiled brat", intelligent but without any direction. Very well off parents but with little time for parenting. For the next 15 years or so they tried to make a go of it, but lack of maturity on both sides canceled each attempt. She did at least get his parents to give him a free apartment and an allowance to keep him off the streets (she was using our money to help him) and they settled on hours long phone conversations which invariably ended in anger and tears. I'd promised that she would always have a place to live if I had one. Never regretted that. She was an artist (think Erika) tumultuous passions and extravagant emotional outbursts. I helped to contain some of that.
This house in WA (her mom died (from cancer) here, Teresa took care of her to the end, her dad's girlfriend died here and her dad died here). Not very lucky for the family. She worked very hard to make this place her own, she always wanted a house of her own. She did try to convince me that her friend should move up here but I had to say no; too difficult to be around. After 5 years or so she was diagnosed with cancer, non operable and no way would she do chemo. We decided to make wills. She wanted her friend to be executer (lawyer advised not to as friend lived in CA) and I wanted her niece who lives in WA as executer. Considering what she was going through I relented. Maybe a weak moment. She loved her nieces but was quite jealous of them for having parents who loved them and supported them. Teresa's relationship with her parents, especially with her dad (also an Aries) was always a battle of wills and conflict even though she wanted his love and approval. He was an old fashioned man's man and giving up anything to a mere female was not in his playbook.
I don't know if any of this helps to clarify anything but your reading brings up many points of congruent thoughts. Justice, linked with the idea of a will (right order, law, and outcomes long in coming) is af course relevant, "your feeling/being out of alignment with 'higher order' is leading you to try to compensate with these changes" (prayer for understanding "right action" needed here). For the most part this reading seems to be, as you say, "at least useful, even if unwelcome". Thanks for delivering what was probably a difficult reading.
If anything from my historical diatribe above brings up any insights feel free to send them along. I'll keep rereading and trying to connect dots.