Jeff Russell

Jeff,
Thank you so so much for this! Indeed,it struck a chord, more than just one actually.

The fact that the rune of change is "murky" tracks with my current situation: I was on a fairly set and orderly course with my uni studies, having completed all my theoretical exams and being halfway through the required amount of hours for a placement.
However, back in November I had to go back to my hometown due to a minor health scare (which could still turn major down the line, if left untreated), as I couldn't get the proper medical attention in my place of study. And they have already told me I'm not allowed to complete my placement remotely (even though I could). So the "quarrelsome arrangement" bit might very well have to do with the way I feel treated by my university tutors - poorly, unwilling to offer reasonable adjustments to ppl with disabilities or chronic illness. So, lack of partnership, i.e. support in this case.
It could also have to do with my living arrangement when I'm there, which is far from safe and serene (housemates problems). Another reason that makes me wary of spending too much time there (at this point, I'd rather go back just to pack my stuff, disconnect the utilities and say my goodbyes, tbh). And another person has offered me to move in with them while I complete the placement, but I'm getting "off" vibes from them. Not that they have less than clear intentions, I know it's an offer made in good faith, but I've often witnessed them change their mind on important things from one day to the next and that rubs my autistic, orderly self, the wrong way :)

Furthermore: the curriculum switch I am considering is less than ideal, given my original motivations for enrolling in the MSc. It would be just a way to cut my losses and still come out of this mess with a title instead of dropping out when 3/4 of the job are done. So Ehwaz murky could be one of these things or all of them at once, I suppose.

Does that make sense?

Huske