Jeff Russell

Runes
Asking - "What does FJay most need to know about what happened in the last decade of her life?"
Draw
Wyrd: Nauthiz
Werthende: Hagalaz (Murky)
Sculd: Ansuz (Murky)

My Take on It

Alrighty, to do this reading, I opened a sacred space, called upon the Wyrds (Norns) and concentrated on your question while shaking the Runestaves vigorously. I then dropped them in a dice tray, said a prayer to the Gods who help me with divination, and then drew three staves without looking, using the spread "Wyrd (what affected the last 10 years from beforehand), Werthende (what happened during the last ten years), and Sculd (what is most likely to come out of the last ten years, either already passed from the standpoint of today, or still maybe to come). If I drew the stave right side up, it is "bright," and if I drew it face down it is "murky," which is roughly equivalent to drawing a card reversed in systems like Tarot. In the system of interpretation I use, "murky" means either that the forces represented by the Rune are manifesting in an unhelpful or harmful way, or else that they are somehow "blocked" - not manifesting fully or at all.

As for the reading, it sounds like you had a rough time! For "Wyrd," what was set down before the last decade that had a bearing on it, we have Nauthiz which means "need." You had a lack of something necessary, and felt that lack keenly, which was almost certainly unpleasant, but might have been a source of strength and determination. "Werthende," the happenings of the last decade, came up as Hagalaz (Murky), which means "hail" (as in frozen precipitation, not a greeting), which is the Rune of crisis. The fact that it came up murky implies that you were not ready for this crisis/these crises, and that rather than being the impetus for change and growth, it/they might have just left you unready and/or unwilling for what you needed to do. For "Sculd," what was most likely to come out of all of that, we have Ansuz (Murky), which means "God/Divine Ancestor," and of the Gods, is most closely linked with Woden (Odin) and His strengths/gifts. Coming up murky indicates delusion, confusion, or a lack of synthesis.

Putting all this together, it reads to me as if you were lacking something, and then got hit exactly where that lack would hurt the most, and this has left you left you at a loss for what to do. So, ouch. One point that jumps out at me is that Ansuz (Murky) can at times indicate Woden's gifts of persuasion and eloquence turned to bad ends (for you), and so it might be a warning that you have or might fall under the influence of someone who holds out the promise of solving the confusion and weakness that has come from your crises, but in a way that is ultimately to your detriment. To make all this a bit less bleak, I think the spark of hope in this reading is, oddly enough, Nauthiz in "Wyrd" - just as "necessity is the mother of invention," powerfully felt need can be a spur to determination and achievement. I'm going out on a limb a bit here, but this seems to say to me that you might have been given a test, and somehow turned away from it, rather than rising to meet it. To the degree that the effects of all this hardship are still shaping your life, look to your own strength for the way through.

Please let me know if you have any follow up questions, and if you're willing, I'd very much appreciate hearing whether this struck a chord or felt off, and if so, in what ways.

Cheers,
Jeff