I enjoyed your post very much. Parts of your story remind me of my path. I found JMG when I decided I wanted a deity (or deities) and I happened across an article of his that led me to the Druid Handbook. It took me a while to find my pantheon, but you are right... when it is right, you can feel it. And I have no interest in being a Reconstructionist. ;-)

Your post is a logical well-written explanation of things that I have felt but would struggle to express with words.